Sometimes, actually often, I cannot find the strenght to do the things I want to do. How silly can that be? I want to improve my skills, for instance, in a sertain subject in school. I personally want to improve everything, so lets take math. I never practice it home, or after school, although I am fully aware I can get extra help. The only time i do math is the two lessons we have on Monday and Friday. And even then, half of the time I can be distracted by something else.
At the moment I'm bothered by my history project. I work in the group, so the pressure is low. Simultaniously I want to do my best, and I have seperate subjects from theirs, that I have full responsibility of.
Right... So who can help me but myself? I'm supposed to stop this, whatever I am doing here and now, and start digging into work.
However I will write some more, fngers itch from the thirst of writing here. I sit at my last lesson, wondering what will I do afterwards...restless feeling. Beautiful weather, not to cold, some freetime, why not? The problem is, what?
I want to have a fresh breath of air, a little walk, and some socialization (is that even a word?). I will figure something out, I trust me. I should, at least of all.
So back to the courage part...I was told I have the willingness from a dear person I look up to. I will trust her. The first step was done. So now is...appreceation from what I'm at, and seeking for a little plan of improvement. A plan. A schedule...
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